Why I am like Captain Ahab

My Current Obsessions

• Greatness (I know, the arrogance)
  
  • I want to be an amazing something
    
    • 1) A great inventor
    
    
    • 2) A great scientist/mathematician
    
    
    • 3) A brilliant business person come philanthropist
    
    
    • 4) World class at something difficult


• Peace of Mind
  
  • I want that deep peaceful and powerful concentration I used to have as a kid
  
  
  • I want to be able to think deeply about a subject with patience and trust that the process will be fruitful


• Being Inspired/Motivated
  
  • I want the sense of wonderment to be powerful enough for me to accomplish things
  
  
  • I want the trust that I will have the time and energy to make something constructive from following my curiosity


• Deep Understanding
  
  • I want to understand more things that I am involved with from its constructive "first principles"
  
  
  • I want to be able to achieve this level of understanding in way that seems more volitional and predictable

Energy, Engagement, or Just Getting Things Done

So, I've decided to read three "self-help" books at once.

Getting Things Done
High Energy Living
The Power of Full Engagement

The hope is that I will become more effective, energetic, and engaged.